Clutter In My Head

That’s how you get by. I read about this somewhere. We just have to imagine the aftermath, so we don’t get too caught up in the mess. Just have something to look forward to & keep moving towards it. I feel like & I know so that I grew a lot older this year. I can say that I actually started living real life at 23. I learned a lot. At the start of the year, I told myself I wanted to make it awesome but a lot of things happened & did not happened as I had hoped for them to… But surprisingly, i can say I still had an awesome time! I lost so many things I loved so much, but along the way I gained a few things I am slowly falling in love with. Yes, I am still hungover abour a few things, but it doesn’t bother me so much anymore. I feel like it’s just part of letting go- that longing & endeavour to relish & sustain whatever is left… Until you just wake up one day & it is gone, you are free & ready to find something new. Still the key ingredient is knowing that it will eventually be over & something comes after it. I am excited for myself. I was never a ‘positive’ person until 2011. It pushed me to change. I just owe it to the eager student in me, always disecting the moral of story. Thank you, 2011. You taught me well. I learned that change is constant, is good & if it’s worth making, it takes its time.

Random word vomit at 3 in the morning.